My time in Bangkok

I have had a wonderful time in Bangkok. Before I arrived I expected that I would be doing some kind of relief work cleaning up after the floods, but to my surprise there was not much work left to be done. So then I thought I would do something with the children in the slums, but there were no ministries going out. I was beginning to get very discouraged, thinking " Lord, why am I here, what am I supposed to do? I am ready to serve but where?". Well, god had a different plan. You see, for the past 3 years I have started off my New Year with a missions trip, and it has been an amazing way to set the tone for my year to come. This year I think God is trying to teach me a few lessons, that I may otherwise have not understood had I not been here in Bangkok. The first lesson is that He is number 1. That idea seems so obvious and trivial but in fact it is the hardest thing I struggle with. I put God first in the big parts of my life; the decisions, my desires, my needs, but when it comes to the smaller parts (which combined make up the largest part of my life) I am putting other things as number 1. With the increasing use of the Internet and the ease at which it comes, I find myself checking my phone every five seconds just to make sure I haven't missed anything. I "stalk" Facebook throughout my whole day catching up on everyone's lives. I watch T.V. even when there is nothing to watch! No where in any of that junk am I putting God first! There is no way to justify it. God says thou shalt have no other gods before me....oops, I failed at that one big time! The second thing He is showing me is that I need to be more dependent and content in Him. I find myself always wanting something more. Whenever God provides me with something I don't always respond with contentment but rather with "what else?". Watching all of my friends getting married and having children and starting their new lives, I wonder "when is it my turn?". But I have realized something, I am not ready yet. I still have more to do for God. I still have more adventures that I need to have with God, just the two of us, and that makes me excited! It even makes me more excited to think of what my future husband is doing with his extra time alone with God! There is no greater joy to me than to be serving my God with all that I have, and to know that whoever He has for me is doing the same thing!  This time spent in Thailand has shown me that God truly cares for me. That He knows my desires and that He is not afraid to show me how fiercely He loves me! That His timing is perfect and that if I trust in Him, He really does know best!  Enough rambling....I have one more day in Thailand and then it is off to the Philippines! Whew, it's gonna be good!!!